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i need to change some things.
i need motivation.
i need her in my arms.
i need to sleep.
i need my friends to be happy.
i need to know who my real friends are.
i need to shave.
i need to go to the dentist.
hmmmmph busy week.
Jakob ferrara is the cutest child ever, and ralph and joanne are amazing parents. |
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| 01:32am 11/02/2004 |
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mood:  happy music: a modest promise
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So today was pretty rocking, went out with mike and got my little lady's vday presents. Hung out at mike's mad a creation is crucifixtion and estaline mix, picked up kimi, and went to NJ to the MPD. it was awesome annmarie and her friends made us all feel welcome. Walter is the funniest kid ever. I am going to sleep happy. |
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| 11:13pm 09/02/2004 |
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If i don't leave this house shortly even for an hour, something will be destroyed. I am terribly happy that i don't own a firearm right now. Having 4 feet of space in a living room of a two bedroom apt. with 7 sucks ass. someone please kill me, you'll be doing six other people a favor. I'm going to go die. you go listen to godspeed you black emporer! now. |
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| i'm a ho. |
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| 01:45am 09/02/2004 |
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I'm really scared of what is going to happen. but i can't let it ruin what i have.
Thanks for coming to visit and cheering me up annmarie.you really did, Jersey will be visited very soon. Mike you are a doofus, and i love you. i love you baby. Blockbuster, i hate you.sleep i need you. |
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| 02:29am 08/02/2004 |
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mood:  melancholy
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"will someone please call a surgen who can crack my ribs,and repair this broken heart" |
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| 06:28am 05/02/2004 |
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....holy shit i'm twenty-four not twelve.shut the fuck up. |
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| ....tonight i sleep with a gun in my mouth. |
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| 01:42am 02/02/2004 |
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So i'm one of those people that don't believe in god, but man does that fucker hate me. Just when i think everything is going good, and i'm happy in my life he goes and throws me a massive fucking curve ball, just to mess things up.Today i find out that while my father is in the hospital, his fucking stomach decides to expand in the middle of a procedure, and this makes his lungs stop working. FUCK DOCTORS. SO after a 3hour emergency surgery he is ok, or so my family tells me, fuck them too. Then I go to work and get a call,telling me that someone who i cared for very much, albiet never got to spend much time with passed away.She was an amazing, caring,human being,and was far too young to be taken from this world. I am so sick of everything. there are drug dealers, jukies, rapists child molestors all free, healthy, able to do whatever fucked up things they want to themselves and others, but this caring, gentle, wonderful soul is taken insted. FUCK this, fuck life,fuck everything.TO her family, i'm sorry for your loss,i'm sure she is in a much better place and happy.She was an angel here, now she is an angel in heaven.
and to my angel, thank you for being there for me, and for the hugs. i love you
and to my friends, i love you all, and i will always be here for you. |
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| for dana h.... |
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| 01:32am 02/02/2004 |
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Change in every little desire
We were counting on forces we could not control
Oh and all those things you realized
Were nothing more than a memory displaced through
So the story's told beyond our grasp
We were climbing forever an infinite task
Shoulders straining with the endless toil
We're nothing more than a feather moving in the wind
I want to change everything
I want to change everything
I want to blame everything on
Oh and all these seeds will grow anyway
Even though the outcome we cannot say
So you'll always have your time to shine
Even in the winter of your darkest hour
In the depths of my gloom
I crawl out for you
From the peaks of my joy
I crawl back into
Tearing me down evey time you smile
Every shining time you arrive
sunny day real estate- every shining time you arrive
you are way more than you ever let yourself be.and now you are an angel. |
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| 11:25am 01/02/2004 |
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so yeah yestarday was better than the day before.so thats good right? we all went to the set to flames/dfd show. they were both good.it was the best i've ever seem dfd, except their set got cut short, but what can you do. we were gonna go to a dinner after but they hate us so they left hahaha. came home went and got food then got some sleep.sleep is nice. gonna go do more of that now i think. buh-bye |
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| 01:40am 31/01/2004 |
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today sucked.
tomorrow better be....well...better. |
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| 12:37am 29/01/2004 |
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its cold in here, and i'm tired, every one come over and we will have a cuddle orgy. |
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| 01:50am 27/01/2004 |
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fuck. long entry deleted. fuck
point is good day
pallisades = fun for anthony, hopefully for annmarie
kimi = happy anthony
mike = happy anthony
annmarie = happy anthony
diner = happy anthony
anthony = keeping his fingers crossed, worried
cuz everything is going well, that it will stop.
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| 01:47am 23/01/2004 |
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i'm too tired to update, so here is the short version. life is good :)
chris is coming home for the show next weekend and that is soooo metal
i get to see for all its worth on sat. and peanut butter co. tomorrow. Yay for me! |
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| t minus seventeen years and counting... |
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| 05:57pm 20/01/2004 |
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mood:  blah music: circle takes the motherfucking square
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I really hate seeing and reading about my friends being upset, hurt,angry.It really sucks, like i wish i could make everything better for all of them.I'm sorry things are going not so good for a bunch of people i care about, and i'm sorry i can't fix it.all i can do is be here for you if you want me to be.
on a different not, please everyone go out and buy or order off interpunk or robotic empire the circle takes the square lp it is the most amazing recording i have heard in many years. if you like emo,screamo,hardcore,grind,metal, honesty,art...anything you will love it. |
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| 12:44am 19/01/2004 |
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i'm glad we talked.
cleaning up human poop at work is just fucking lame. |
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| 05:28pm 16/01/2004 |
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take what i have, take these broken remains
what can i give you that you don’t already deserve
as i lay dying |
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| don't read this,unless you are me, then in that case do as it says fucko. |
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| 03:09pm 16/01/2004 |
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do you ever feel like you are trying your hardest for no reason what so ever? like you are working harder then you ever have, doing things you never thought you would do, thinking in different lights, all to achieve a certain (most likely un-attainable goal)? I am feeling that way now, it seems no matter how hard i try i can't break this down, no matter how honest i am, i'm not believed. For once in my life I will not agree to this defeat, it is worth fighting for, getting hurt for, losing everything for. I am good enough for it, I will speak clearly enough and I will not let myself defeat myself this time. IT IS WORTH IT. |
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| 04:37pm 14/01/2004 |
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mood:  accomplished
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wow i actually accomplished things today, i cleaned...and...moved furniture. go me.
ps. it just occurred to me how lazy i am, so lazy in fact i think doing two things that need to be done deserves rewarding. yay for laziness! |
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